The end of Second Week!

Haloooo!! it is the end of second week here in melby and guess what i have only 10 more weeks to go here..

i guess time flies really really fast while you are busy and sometimes it seems like there is not enough time in each day but i am enjoying it here!!!!

i guess i am enjoying it because well in the unit i`m attached too we are treated as part of the team, so that means we do things that the doctors do meaning we write up discharge summaries, we write notes, we write up the pathology test slips and we see patients in our free time talking to them and getting to know them better. We also examine the patients and write down our findings within the files which is really awesome. Makes me feel like a real doctor :):) Oh yeah i also have an awesome group mate haha which is reallly really good makes being there more interesting!!

But even with all of this, i still miss home abit when i`m alone. i really want to go home at times and see my friends and thanks to those who called me haha all the way from malaysia and also thoseee in Melbyy!!! .. it really means alot. Puts me out of my funky mood.

Anyways yeah on the average day, i wake up about 6am (coz i need to bathe get ready and catch the bus) and come home about 6pm tho sometimes it gets quite late haha with some of the things we do.

I guess what we are doing now can be seen though different POV.

I prefer to see it through rose tinted glasses.

it is tiring coz we have to wake up earlier and sleep late (coz have to read up also la if can hehe) but i guess this is all training on how to be excellent awesome fantastic doctors! Coz i mean we are going to be interns / housemen (Malaysia) within the next year and we have to become competent over the next year in things we have been slacking on as well as learn how to function and work as a houseman so that when we start we wont be like super disorganised!

Also we have this really really short opportunity to mingle with specialists and consultants and glean from their years of experience to find out what no text books can teach us. I find it easier to do things if i see one, do one and explain one which i guess has been happening over the past few weeks. and now all the things i read in the books seem more relevant and relevant! well becoming more relaventerrrrr

Yeah! I guess people may see me as a happy go lucky kind of person … some people may even say that i came here to enjoy myself alot… but i mean why not. I am happy coz i choose to be and yeah i came here to enjoy myself coz i get to meet my friends after so long, experience a new culture (working), make new friends and hopefully be able to become a better doctor in the future.

back to the point tho!

Stepping into too-jilo-want-jilo (2010)

Well people it is that time of the year again … normally i would have typed out my reflections of the year but because time was quite rushed i could not.. =)

every year during watchnight service i would ask God what will this year bring what should I do…

Last year was a year of discipline and i remember that I typed some super long long long long post maybe i should do the same now haha…

As i look back i realised that this discipline was not as i had expected and i shall leave it as that …  it did happen by the way!! haha

Lord this year teach me and take me deeper with You. Help me to answer the call u have placed on my life to the best of my ability. Let it not be by my strength or power or my might but Lord i pray for Your spirit. Teach me to wait upon You this year and to recieve that fresh infilling and power to go through this year. I proclaim this year a Year of Favour but Lord it is only because of You I am favoured so let not Your spirit leave me but Lord i pray for an overflowing sense of Your presence in my life.

Right now i am in Australia and well i dun really like it much coz i`ll rather be back home…. But even when i am here help me to make a difference and use me to be Your hands and Your feet I pray. Lord I wanna do what U want me to do!! that is all my hearts cry. Lord Even when I`m here I ask for Your presence to go with me even as i traverse this foreign land and hospital. Let Your Love overflow out to each patient I care for and to each member of staff I meet. Help me to be patient and a good testimony for You. I dont know what else to pray for Lord I just wanna commit this 3 months in australia into Your hands. Use me and empower me to reach the unreached. Help me be sensitive to Your spirit and Lead me to Grow deeper and deeper in Love with You this year.

I just wanna Love You with everything i have! I do what i do Lord, coz of Your amazing Love for me. I wanna thank You for everything You have done thus far. But I believe there is more. Lord I wanna take part in what You are doing in this blessed land! In Jesus name i ask and pray Amen.

James 4:8 (NKJV)
Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded.

Updates!

It is the day after Christmas so to everyone who is reading this! Happy Belated Christmas to youuuu!

haha i decided to blog after people complained that i have not been updating my blog recently and well i looked back and realised my last post was on the 1st of dec… which is almost a month ago =)

well i wont write what has happened coz i guess it will bore people but just one thing in this month is that this month, God reminded me that He is a Faithful God and though sometimes i lack faith, He keeps true to His word! =) He is an ever faithful God

If we are faithless,  He remains faithful;
He cannot deny Himself.
2 Timothy 2:13, NKJV

This time this year, i kinda had to resit an exam which to me was a big thing all of my friends i guess most of them didnt have to resit and for me i know that God spoke to me clearly that He will see me through this year and it was at this time i was so confused worried panicked and … well i really cant rmb much except feeling like horrible. I asked God why me… have i not served You, have i not done everything You asked me to. I cried and said.. God i have done everything i can already.. and this happens.

I know that God told me 4 years ago to pick up medicine and I know for a fact that there is a call in my life in this area. but each year i go through i seem to get further and further away from that call and well this year i completely just couldnt understand why i am even in the course i am in. I really didnt feel any passion for what i did. You know i didnt feel anything at all…so i thought maybe this was it … this was the end.

I almost gave up studying but i thank God for the people he has placed in my life who reminded me of His call and who pushed me to study for my resit. which was 4 days away from the result release date.